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disrespect for a voice unheard
has left a void unfilled
white hot anger in my brain
as I see the numbers killed
helpless as I'm forced to be
the guilt it spreads inside
I would give my arms and legs
to still another unjust cry
for who could put a price
on another human life
and could you count the cost in gold
of another human soul
lip service is just spit in the wind
don't think you're making a difference
when all you do is pretend
and pick and choose the ones you care for
comfort yourself instead
I'm just as guilty but I know what's at stake
and those who kill don't show consistency
it doesn't matter where you come from
or who you are
we all bleed the same
I keep looking back, looking back
and im ashamed
I keep looking back, looking back
and I'm ashamed
of the thoughts that so encompass
of the thoughts that so encompass me
a condition I can't help
and I wish that I was somewhere else
somewhere else
somewhere else
disrespect for a voice unheard
has left a void unfilled
white hot anger in my veins
as I see the numbers killed
helpless as I'm forced to be,
the guilt it spreads inside
I would give my arms and legs
to still another unjust cry
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Pain Split
02:24
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I remember a place when I felt safe, a place when I felt loved
Traded it away for something
Something that would break
Something that would leave my heart full of ache
Time spent on the worthless things of here
The things that I held dear
Fully blind with both eyes open wide
From Your voice I’ll try to hide
You’re not beautiful to me anymore
And now the truth clears all the fog from inside my head
Repeating over and louder
Repeat until I’m dead.
“All my evil actions.
And every evil thought
Are taken down, and hold nothing now
My soul has been bought”
Blind by light
Fight or flight
Broken by strife
Pain split life
I remember a place when I felt safe, a place when I felt loved
Traded it away for something
Something that would break
Something that would leave my heart full of ache
I’ll enter in with one eye
But with a heart that’s new
I’ll enter in with one hand
Hack it off and let me, let me get to You
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Where to even begin my story
As I know my words will fail
Tell of the person that you were
And the person you are now
Lying in that hospital bed
The wounds begin to show themselves
That devil late-stage cancer
That you fought so hard and well
I'm afraid of final goodbyes
Even though it's not really the end
After running for so long
Grace claimed you in the end
This life seems so long without you
But I guess that's how it goes
I know you're passing away soon
There won't be a chance to say goodbye
There won’t be a chance to say goodbye
And your time is running out
It's running out
You made Christmases so special
You loved going to the beach
Every joy that you could give us
And you truly loved to teach
You had the greatest sense of humor
I could always talk to you
And now that all these things remain
I'll miss you
Until the end
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4. |
Spirits Away
02:00
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Things don’t feel the same
The excitement I used to feel is gone
Is this getting old
Or am I homesick
Homesick for somewhere I’ve never been
I long to be at the place with You
Every second feels like a waste
Striving desperately for a scent or taste
It’s in those moments I feel You
It breaks my heart to be away
With love more faithful than the rising sun
My love is weak and it wanders.
I’m missing out
Yet you always rescue
Even in my resistance
So is it guilt or homesickness
That drive me back
You say my guilt is covered
I believe You
Take me to be with You
You say my guilt is covered
I believe You
Spirts away
Let my flesh decay
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5. |
Diet Koresh
03:27
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A starving broken beaten waste
A dark shroud you won't escape
Carried by your shaking legs
To the place that you love best
Come and give of your sickness
Now dressed in white and forgiven
Integrity is for the weak
There is only truth in suffering
Lucky for me you're losing sleep
Let's stop pretending that you want things different
Integrity is for the weak
There is only truth in suffering
Too many questions to be meek
Let's stop pretending that you want an answer
Please don't communicate
To the ones that show God hate
From your family turn away
You don't need them anyway
Why keep a wayward heart
Or one’s own autonomy
No need for worldly thoughts
Your mind will be set free
Those building bigger barns
Forsake the narrow path
The non-compliant burn
In the fires of God's wrath
Why keep a wayward heart
Or one’s own autonomy?
No need for worldly thoughts
You'll all be just like me
Integrity is for the weak
There is only truth in suffering
Too many questions to be meek
Let's stop pretending that you want an answer
God changed his mind and
You're all damned to hell now
Go, fast, and pray that
We might make you well
Go, and purge yourself from within
Lie down in full submission
My creation
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6. |
Drug of Choice
04:02
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I can feel the fog of another day
It grips at my uncertainty
Now my worst fear has come to life
And its becoming clear
This poison never truly left me at all
And now it's drawing near
this poison never truly left me at all
Like Peeling back the layer pasted down
A temporary patch thought permanent
Like Peeling back the layer pasted down
A temporary patch thought strong
Now I'm faced with everything I chose to be
The weight of my transgressions suffocate
So I’m coping returning to my drug of choice
And i can hardly bear to watch
I can feel the fog of another day
It grips at my uncertainty
Am i redeemed?
Now my worst fear has come to life
Get thee behind me
I cry as I relapse
It subjugates me
I can hear it's mocking laugh
I'm drowning in this bed I made for myself
Get thee behind me
it subjugates me
And I've got no one to blame
No one but myself
I'm on the cusp of losing everything I love
It claws my eyes and draws my breath out of my lungs
I feel unworthiness touch
All I long to be
The filth it keeps its oath to
always be with me
I'm losing everything
Making provision for my sin I try to hide
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7. |
Meant to Lose
03:15
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I’ll vocalize frustration
As I try to find my place in
Uncertain things
One thing that I'm sure of
I'm embarrassing myself
And dying slow
In my aging skin
No one knows what a failure i am
Sometimes I stumble over my words when I speak
Crushed by the weight of others' words I imagine
I know I've gotten worse
I've gotten worse and the worst part is I'm fine
Im up at two am
Overthinking all my life
Crying wordless, but I’m alive
I don't know how to fix myself
Dancing around social cues
Feeling like I'm meant to lose
Held firmly down as I am paralyzed by fear
Thoughts racing endless, I can’t sleep
Dreading tomorrow where I don't want to be
My body's aching and I need help
No one knows what a failure I am
I’ll vocalize frustration
As I try to find my place in
Uncertain things
One thing that I'm sure of
I'm embarrassing myself
And dying slow
I’m dying
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8. |
True Love
03:31
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I can’t believe that You can look at me
Make me believe that You could love me
How can You bare the sight of me
When I disgust myself
How do I compare to Him
My legs are broken
I’ll try to follow
Falling over and over again
I swear I’ll catch up
My crawling all in vain
Sliding back into this hole I made
I walk by weakness
Yet Your love, it stays
Never changing
I can do nothing but rejoice
I don’t deserve this
I didn’t earn this
My legs are broken
And I cannot follow
With Your perfect strength
Carry me
I’m waiting just for You
Let me receive
Let me receive
Why have I gotten this
True love for a fallen race
The fire should have me
True love for the broken race
The doom should take me
True Love, why protect me?
True Love why?
What is Your servant that You should show regard for a dead dog such as I?
My legs are broken, and I cannot follow
With Your perfect strength
Carry me
I’m waiting just for You
Open my hands
Let me receive
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